Melting

Somedays i feel like i wake up and see can only see through foggy eyes. Or maybe its the reality that i am seeing that i usually don't that makes it seem this way. Today i hate everything about the world. I hate school because i feel like it's completely pointless. I don't learn anything and i am more motivated on all of my own personal endeavours. Every person i see walking by me i am disgusted with. All these people are trapped in the same motions that i am trapped in but don't even realize that it is slowly eating them alive. I want to hit the floor, shut my eyes and wake up when the sun is out. Wake up when i am back in the van with my friends driving around playing music. I want to pick apart my brain so i can find the part that got me into this mess of college and destroy it. There is more to everything than we all see. And days like today i see it and it scares me.
Today i woke up feeling like i was being dragged behind a car, like i keep trying to get on my feet but i am moving too fast to stand up.

The new Matt and Kim album blows

Today i was realizing how poorly i react to criticism. Not that i show any sort of emotion but just that makes my brain turn the same corner a million times. It is something i guess i have never handled well. I think everyone wants to be good at what they do. I can't figure out if i love to do the things i'm good at or if i'm good at te things i love to do. Either way wold be something.